Well, it seems as though life is slowly but surely getting back to normal. It’s kind of odd in a way…but when Monday came around I decided its a new week, and its time to get everything back on track. First of all….the house needed a major cleaning…I can’t believe how messy things can get in just a couple of weeks. Its not so much that we weren’t picking up after ourselves, as just not doing the cleaning, cleaning stuff, because I was constantly running back and forth to where by grandmother was (over 2 hours away in Waupaca, WI), plus spending what seemed like hours a day on the phone checking up on grandma or answering questions for others looking for updates.
Grandmother passed away July 24th, and the funeral was last Thursday. While I miss her terribly, I have to admit that when I got the call I breathed a sigh of relief. She was in so much pain…to an extent that I would not wish on anyone. It was so hard to see her like that, knowing there was no chance she would be getting any better. The only question I will always wonder is why the he** her doctor would have advised her to have breast cancer surgery at the age of 86, knowing that she had a BAD heart. She probably had less than a 50/50 chance of waking up from the surgery much less recovering from it. At that time she was in NO pain from the cancer, and while I wouldn’t call her “healthy” (she was 86 after all) she was mostly comfortable. It just seems to me that this whole thing would have been so much less painful for her if they would NOT have done the surgery, fact-be-told, I also think she would have lived longer and been more comfortable, and possibly have even spent the rest of her days at home where she wanted to be (or at least several months at home in much less pain).
I have many projects to post for everyone….including an entire throw I crocheted mostly in the time spent visiting grandmother, a picture board completed for the funeral, another wedding card from a wedding we attended on Saturday, as well as the two digital scrapbook pages I am posting today.
In honor of grandmother I did complete a couple scrapbook pages using My Digital Studio (a digital scrapbook and card making software by Stampin Up!) All of the pictures used in these two pages are very recent pictures of grandmother. They were taken at my cousin’s wedding this past March. She looked so nice that day, and that special sparkle was in her eyes just like I always remembered. The last time I visited grandmother she was barely opening her eyes, but just for a second or two she seemed to open them wide and look right at me, and that magical sparkle was still there. That sparkle let me know SHE was still in that body even though everything was fading. When I drove home that last time that’s all I could see, and that sparkle is how I choose to remember those last days.
Project 67 of 365: Grandma’s Sparkle
Project 68 of 365: Memories of Grandmother
I Love You Grandmother, and thank you so much for raising me to be the person I am today. – Forever your little girl- Betsy